[ she actually flinches when his voice raises a tone. it's not that she's afraid of him - not at all, not with the words he's saying - but with each step of indignation in his voice, he reminds her more and more of god. his absolute certainty in his tone; his undeniable power.
it's kind of... reassuring, in a fearful and awesome sort of sense. she's glad he's on her side. ]
It's really... [ not as bad as it sounds, she starts to say and gives up two words in. it is that bad. it's literally why she struck out the way she did - why she's looking for two girls who are the devil right now. ] I mean, it could be worse? It could always be worse. It's like Neptune likes to say, at least here hardly anyone ever dies.
[ but that's not the part she wants to talk about right now. it's not the reason her smile is coming back - her actual smile, not the forced one she's been relying on for a few minutes. ]
Jupiter, and Neptune, and me... we all let the devil in. She spoke to us, and we didn't chase her out. [ her eyes are hazy, focusing on something past apollo once again - but her smile is unguarded. ] And if it takes a whole camp to stop one bad girl, what can they do against the three worst ones since Eve?
[ it's not spoken self-deprecatingly. it's a badge of pride. ]
So... we didn't escape. [ but she doesn't hesitate, or give him time to think about just what she's saying, before- ] We tore it all down. All the buildings, the cabins, the chapel. It's just. Gone now.
[ every part of it that made it what it was, thrown into the wind by a thousand ghostly hands. the stifling rule of god hurled into the lake and drowned. stained glass and wood, beaten down into dust by her light. she takes a long, satisfied sip of her coffee, rolling it around in her mouth for the taste. it's bitter, true, but the sweetness is shining through. she thinks she could probably get used to this. ]
GOD SORRY ABOUT THE LENGTH HERE I'M TRYING
it's kind of... reassuring, in a fearful and awesome sort of sense. she's glad he's on her side. ]
It's really... [ not as bad as it sounds, she starts to say and gives up two words in. it is that bad. it's literally why she struck out the way she did - why she's looking for two girls who are the devil right now. ] I mean, it could be worse? It could always be worse. It's like Neptune likes to say, at least here hardly anyone ever dies.
[ but that's not the part she wants to talk about right now. it's not the reason her smile is coming back - her actual smile, not the forced one she's been relying on for a few minutes. ]
Jupiter, and Neptune, and me... we all let the devil in. She spoke to us, and we didn't chase her out. [ her eyes are hazy, focusing on something past apollo once again - but her smile is unguarded. ] And if it takes a whole camp to stop one bad girl, what can they do against the three worst ones since Eve?
[ it's not spoken self-deprecatingly. it's a badge of pride. ]
So... we didn't escape. [ but she doesn't hesitate, or give him time to think about just what she's saying, before- ] We tore it all down. All the buildings, the cabins, the chapel. It's just. Gone now.
[ every part of it that made it what it was, thrown into the wind by a thousand ghostly hands. the stifling rule of god hurled into the lake and drowned. stained glass and wood, beaten down into dust by her light. she takes a long, satisfied sip of her coffee, rolling it around in her mouth for the taste. it's bitter, true, but the sweetness is shining through. she thinks she could probably get used to this. ]