creatio: (nineteen.)
ᴄʟᴀʀʏ (ง'̀-'́)ง Fʀᴀʏ ([personal profile] creatio) wrote in [community profile] reverienet2018-06-26 03:07 pm

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( Clary can't sleep. That isn't new, but thanks to the steady application of an Endurance rune she doesn't quite look like the walking dead yet. In fact, her stele turning up has been a godsend. Nourishment to stop her having to eat the weird replicated food, Stealth so that she can wander the halls at all hours, and Soundless so that no one hears her scream if she finally gets a few hours sleep before the nightmares come. But runes can't really help her state of mind, and there's only so much she can do to stop herself going crazy.

Which is what drives her to the network in the middle of the night, thoughts going round in vicious circles.
)

if you could wish for one thing in the whole wide world, what would it be?

( Grief isn't new, not to Clary. Each person that gets taken from her is another chip in her heart. But she's used to doing something. With Simon, she'd forced the others to bury him so that he could come back. With Jocelyn, she'd killed the demon who took her. With Jace, there should have been a wish.

If whoever brought her here had waited only two more minutes. She was so close. But now she's here. And he's dead. And in the dark of artificial night she can't put on her cheery smile anymore.
)

What if you knew that it was the only one, in the history of all wishes, and that using it would mean it was gone and no matter who might need it down the line it's been used up, would you still take it?

( Jace will be long dead by the time she manages to get home. If she manages. But she spilt blood, Raziel owes her. There's still a chance. )
charlieoscar: (heartbroken)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-06-26 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's right because it's a guilt he knows. A selfishness he can already see.

He could bring them back, but could they ever forgive him? Could he ever live knowing they couldn't.]


Words enough for every wrong?

[...]

It eventually stops being a wish.
charlieoscar: (praying)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-06-26 03:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I think we both already know the answer to that.

[Never enough wishes.]
charlieoscar: (look)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-06-26 05:33 pm (UTC)(link)
A good thing it's just a hypothetical for me.
charlieoscar: (praying)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-07-01 02:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Knowing right and wrong doesn't mean always feeling it. It would be hard.

[He doesn't judge her for her choice. He wouldn't judge anyone this one.
Just himself.]
charlieoscar: (heartbroken)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-07-04 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
It's easy when it's black and white, but most aren't really. The more you look at them, the more you think about it, the more right and more wrong they become.
charlieoscar: (stand)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-07-09 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Anyone who says it isn't is lying. Or shouldn't be making those choices anymore.
charlieoscar: (stand)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-07-11 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
The goal shouldn't be to never be afraid, or never conflicted, but to able to do the best that we can despite it.
charlieoscar: (bemused)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-07-30 02:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Just good ol' fashioned kick you in the ass experience.
charlieoscar: (shoulder)

[personal profile] charlieoscar 2018-07-31 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
At least it's not boring.