Nice to meet you, Ezra. [ the circumstances could be better, but-- well, now he understands more about why the kid was interested. ] Admittedly not sure why Palpatine would be weird, but I'll take your word for it.
[ he hesitates, pushing his hair back behind an ear, expression fading tiredly. ]
Look, in the interest of full disclosure, there are some things you need to know before we say anything else. [ he glances briefly back down to his hands, gathering his thoughts. strangely, it's always so much harder when he has to say it. ] I started out in the Order, like I said. [ his glance lifts again, meeting ezra's, the sense of him open and honest. ] It's a long story, but I ended up falling to the dark side. There's a lot I still don't remember and might never remember, but I came back to the Republic as a Sith, started another war.
[ he rubs the heel of his palm over his eyes, pushing back memories that threaten just mentioning it like this. ]
I'm not going to justify it. I might still be one of them if the Jedi hadn't wiped my memories and used me against Malak. But I'm not, and I'm not a Jedi, and you deserve to know, considering your experiences with Sith. Keeping it from you would be as good as lying to you.
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[ he hesitates, pushing his hair back behind an ear, expression fading tiredly. ]
Look, in the interest of full disclosure, there are some things you need to know before we say anything else. [ he glances briefly back down to his hands, gathering his thoughts. strangely, it's always so much harder when he has to say it. ] I started out in the Order, like I said. [ his glance lifts again, meeting ezra's, the sense of him open and honest. ] It's a long story, but I ended up falling to the dark side. There's a lot I still don't remember and might never remember, but I came back to the Republic as a Sith, started another war.
[ he rubs the heel of his palm over his eyes, pushing back memories that threaten just mentioning it like this. ]
I'm not going to justify it. I might still be one of them if the Jedi hadn't wiped my memories and used me against Malak. But I'm not, and I'm not a Jedi, and you deserve to know, considering your experiences with Sith. Keeping it from you would be as good as lying to you.